Less than a month ago I moved from the UK to the USA to be with my husband of almost one year (yeah us!) Not enough time to do much of anything. Except just be. Be with my husband, be a wife, be in our home. Being has never been my strength; I’m more of a do-er, always having to keep moving: my body, my mind, my mouth…
In the new I’m too busy trying to plan, trying to check off my multiple lists of things to do and control the outcome; overwhelming myself along the way, but unable or unwilling to stop because “things need to get done”. Over the years God has lovingly slowed me down by reminding me to “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10), because I often forget – especially in the new. There is a stillness to experience, to be enjoyed in the new. A tangible, lengthy stillness, along with simple moments of pause.
In the new there is change coupled with lessons. Despite being married for almost one year my husband and I have lived in separate continents for most of that time while we waited for God to grant my visa. Change for me right now is: learning to be a godly wife, learning to be interdependent with someone I didn’t grow up with, learning a new culture, learning a new church & community and learning where and how I fit in.
In the new there are challenges; small and big, real and imaginary. Already there have been moments where I have let the new overwhelm me, forgetting to focus on the One who brought me here in the first place. (My forgetfulness caused me to be sick and I’m currently writing this with a stuffy nose and a sore throat!)
Amidst the new, the change and the challenges I will always have Jesus. He is familiar and His familiarity beckons me to acknowledge things may have changed, but He has not (‘Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever’ -Hebrews 13:8). As for my challenges, Jesus gave me this promise, “Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gently and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light.” -Matthew 11:29-30